Prompt: #166 Defense
Word count: 200
Pairing: Charlie, Alan
Summary: Charlie tries to explain and probably just makes things worse.
Notes: Written for numb3rs100, part of A Silk Pillow ‘verse.
A Life of My Own (#166 Defense)
“Where you ever going to tell me?” Alan asked.
“When?” Alan replied not believing it.
Charlie chuckled. “Actually around today. I promised Ian, after our anniversary, I’d talk with you. And look at that, we’re talking.”
“God, Charlie, just, why?”
“I don’t have a good defense Dad. If I was less drugged up I might be able to make something up. I was happy, okay?” Alan winced, he felt like a brick slammed into his chest. “Everyone else always had all these plans for my life and every decision I made I was supposed to double check with a half dozen people like I was still a child. Ian was desired but not planned and when it was just me and him; I felt like my life was mine and no one else’s. I didn’t have to be a son or a brother or a teacher or…. I’m so sorry, dad.”
“And what was wrong with being all those things?” Alan asked trying to keep his voice steady.
“Nothing.” Charlie sighed. “I just wanted, for a few minutes, to be able to love the man I love and not have to defend it to you, or anyone else.”